When I Walked along the red brick building of St.Stephen's College,all my thoughts were about Raghav and Kajal.Both of them are my childhood friends.I was not considering Kajal just as a friend.She was something more for me.But later on I discovered that Raghav and Kajal were a perfect match.He always longed for her.Their relationship was like a blessing.One can undoubtedly say what the other one was thinking
  

                   Kajal is now in Varanasi,our hometown and Raghav at IIT Kanpur.We call each other whenever we get time.But one fine day Kajal refused to answer our calls.At first she said that she was busy and afterwards our calls were left unanswered. Raghav could not bare this because of the strong bond of love between them.

                  Raghav couldn't bare her silence.He is unable to see her unhappy too.I still remember that one day when Kajal was totally silent and depressed in the class because her mother scolded her about something.At that time neither me nor others in the class could make her speak.Only Raghav could make her happy.He started acting like an idiot in front of her to see her smile.He always tried to bring out the madness in her.They couldn't live one day without speaking.But now,it has been one week since they spoke.

                 Raghav and I decided to go Varanasi to find out the reason behind Kajal's silence.When we went there,we were able to see the pathetic condition of our dearest kajal. She was going through the third stage of blood cancer.She was dying day by day.There was no chance for her recovery.
                  
                  We both didn't utter anything.Our silence was much better than expressing our feelings.We can't express this feelings in words. Raghav,however,managed to fake a smile to show that he is okay.But tears were running out of his eyes.May be he was bound by the stars to live a lonely life....He didn't wished to live a life like this.In this World there are things we don't want to happen,But have to ACCEPT...there are people we can't live with,But have to let GO..
He liked her more than anyone.But that day he got slapped in the face with the reality that he'll never be able to live with her.......


Lakshmi J Naik

A DREAM OF LOVE

              People say friendships are made in heaven and then they come in your life. Every step they take, every breath they take we are watching. Because that is our best friend. Finding and to have a best friend who cares for us is very difficult. True friends are like diamond. They are very special and rare. But false friends are like autumn leaves, they are found everywhere. Having a best friend who cares and love us is the most luckiest feeling in the world.

                      Then love.... Love is like a war between two hearts. It is easy to start, difficult to end and impossible to forget. When we love someone, it's nothing. When someone loves you, it's something. But when you love someone and they love you back, it's everything. Without love, life is hopeless.

                      Therefore  having a true friend and a true love is the matter of great happiness. When friendship itself slips down to an affair, may be it will create something good. When love hurts, friendship will there to mind it and to remove the tears. So when true friend and lover become one person, there is no need to worry. That will result in a good life.

                     They were good friends, Meera and Varun. From childhood itself, they become true friends. They enjoyed their school life together. They shared everything, even if it is happy or sad. It was very difficult to separate them because that much deep was their friendship. But after a long period of time, they got separated, to far of places. In the 8th standard, they got separated. For both of them that caused mental trouble. But with the promise to see again, they moved away. As all say, girls are softhearted , Meera cannot tolerate that separation. For first one month, there were calls and messages. But as time passed, Meera felt something wrong in their relationship that Varun is avoiding her. Meera's call was not being attended. No replay for her messages.

                      Slowly she understood that, now she has become a burden in his life and he was avoiding her. Thus she tried to forget him. The state of being hurt made her more strong against all the odds in her life. Slowly she recovered from her pain. But at the same time, her angry towards boys increased day by day. Because the feeling of neglect from him, sometimes hurt her. But even in the midst of all these adverse circumstances, she planned her life well. She continued her studies and completed her secondary school education with distinction.

                       Meera reached her turning point in life. Her plus two education. She performed excellent in her studies and extra curricular activities. Coming to the end of their academic section, she got a proposal from one of her classmate, Sidharth, whom she accepted as her best friend after Varun. Not a deep friendship, but was good friends. So Meera become very shocked when hearing this. She don't know what to do. Separation from Varun is still remaining as a wound in her heart. So Meera told him,

" Once I had best friend like you.... No, the best friend whom I loved more than my life. But he being not genuine in his friendship was avoiding me from his life after missing me. The feeling of neglect from a person whom we love the most is equal to suicide. "

                        But after hearing this Sidharth replied,

" You're my true love, my first love... Now our school life is going to end. My love towards you is sincere and I loved you for the last three years. Your heart is more beautiful than you.... I will never forget you, because I know you very well. I will never let you get sad. If you trust me,  you can join me. "

                        Meera become stunned hearing that " For last three years??? He has been loving me. That means when Varun avoided me, I become a person who loved and cared by my love. "

                        So she said,

" Now I understood that, I'm very lucky. To be loved sincerely by someone for a long time is very rare. " Their journey started from there.

                        We want to live not for whom that we love, but for whom that we are loved. To be a partner of our best friend is an achievement. Bad relationships will go away from us automatically. 

                         Relationship between Meera and Sidharth never did end. Still they love each other and till the end it will remain.

Written By : Vindhuja Vijayakumar     

                                        Think Of

                                                    Donjo George

Think of some situations:

Last recruitment to heaven is going on

And you missed the recruitment.

You go to sleep today in your home 

And when you woke up you are in Mars.

Think of some situations:

A situation where there is no Sunday in a week.

A situation when the Earth gets drained

Without even a drop of water.

Think of some situations:

A situation when there is no rain

A situation when you dont have a head,

A situation when two teachers teach you

English in the same class.

Think of some situations:

A situation when you blink your eyes

You had become an Ant.

A situation when your mouth

Was closed from then on.

Think of some situations:

A situation when the Earth has become fully black

And without any colours.

A situation where all plants have gone 

Missing from our Earth.

Think of some situations:

A situation when you forgot who you are

A situation when your eyes are

Placed on leg instead on your head.

But the reality is

He wont do it to us.

He wont make us go through these situations.

Because he is the Almighty God.

                           IF I HAD A CHOICE!!

Its Raining outside, Raining in my eyes too… I don’t know what all thoughts are running through my mind…. Memories from the time I spent with her kept haunting me again… She made me smile but at the same time I could taste my tears too..

 I am ‘Rahul’ a software engineer. This is my story…But it will only be complete if she is here with me..She.. my love,my vision,my inspiration, my best friend, my sweetheart ‘Neha’. She was my everything... May be I was bound by my stars to live a lonely life. May that’s why I ended up so.

 It was ‘2005’…..My school days…… ‘Rule breakers’! Oh God what a group it was! Rohan, Arjun, Nikhil and Rahul. Everyone was scared of us..We were Rule breakers..Hostellers! A lot of joys, laughs, bunking classes, movies, thrills, love….!! I don’t know how to explain my school days. Arjun was the most genuine and innocent person in our group, or he was different from the three of us. Still now enjoying those memories.. I feel like I am only 15...

It was a rainy day four of us were trying to bunk classes. I remember….it was principal’s hour. Oh God horrible Maths. We planned to go for a film and decided to get out of the campus anyway.. Accidently we were caught by a student.. A Girl.. My ‘Neha’..! I didn’t know even her name at  that time. She was a little child then .Studying in 9^th standard. Arjun started crying.. Rohan tried to console him. Nikhil stood frozen. But My eyes was stuck on her eyes.. It was amazingly awesome.. ‘I could see the depth of oceans, heavens, gardens, my happiness in her eyes, only at that first sight. Everyone was scared because if she complains, it will be the end of the day for us .Three of my friends started begging her not to inform the authorities. But I didn’t ...‘How can I beg to my Love of Life???’…

To astonishment she herself had  got scared and ran away. Arjun started complaining about our decisions for bunking class. But I was happy. Nikhil and Rohan were in a mental process to recollect her class and face. I could see everyone.But I didn’t speak a word. Not because I was frightened.. Just because I was stuck in her eyes. After that hour we entered class.. Everyone started cursing the day.. But for me it was the best day! Four of us were eager to hear Principal’s call.But for God’s grace the day ended nicely..I couldn’t sleep that night.. When I close my eyes the only thing I could see was her eyes..I wish I could turn the earth to change night to morning..I don’t remember when I slept…

.Sun’s first rays fell on my face….It was the most happy day. Enthusiastically I entered the corridors of St. Albert’s for the first time after the first day in that campus. The only thing in my mind was to find ‘Her’…Went to 9^th sections along with Arjun. Sincerely I was frightened of the other two in these matters. I told Arjun about my feelings. His only reply was a naughty smile..!He led me to a class room where I found my Love…Surprisingly Arjun called her ‘Neha’…It was his cousin sister that’s why he was so scared yesterday. He feared if Neha tell this to his parents..! Oh God I melted like an ice cube in front of him.’It was his cousin and I told all these to him!!!’ She turned back and smiled at him,walked towards us…My heart was beating tremendously fast..!She came near him and laughed recollecting yesterday’s incident. While hearing her laughter I skipped a beat in my heart…She was up to my ears. He introduced me, she looked at me and smiled. I think her name was engraved on my Heart, because I felt a pain there..We returned. I was ashamed to look at him...But I pretend like nothing had happened…

                                        I couldn’t forget her.. All my thoughts were filled by her smile and eyes..I could think about it seriously. But I was only 15 and she is 14…May be it was just a teenage infatuation..But everytime I saw her my heart wished to tell her I was in Love... But my brain didn’t allowed that. Above all  she was Arjun’s cousin. For me she must be like a sister.I tried to teach my heart these facts…Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone your heart still belongs to…!!Here another chapter in my life starts…

                                          Through Arjun we communicated well.I think through her I understood manythings…Life…Relations..everything…She healed the pains of my broken childhood of separated parents,lonely hostel rooms.She filled happiness in my sorrows…someone told the best way to love a girl is to make her laugh..but everytime she laugh, it was me who felt deeply for her. Meeting her was an accident but now I found love and care. I am 17 now..The need to be with her increased everyday.But I was reluctant. I studied late nights.. worked hard only for a better future along with her..I think Iam in love with her deeply.. Waited alone in nights for the sun to rise. I completed my 12^th with 94%. Nikhil failed. Arjun passed with 92% and Rohan with 76%. Everyone was astonished about my marks. But my reason for that was:

                    ‘Behind every successful man there is a woman’ 

for me it was my Neha… Everyday,Every minute, Every second, I fell deeper and deeper in love with her. But everytime I postpond that …. I was reluctant to tell her…

Finally I went out of Albert’s … She was there waving her hands for  a better tomorrow for me.. But she don’t even understand I won’t be happy without her… For her I am only her best friend … But…

Completed my 18 years of life…started studying in Nehru University for my software engineering.. Oh God it was the most struggleful days of my life… She was in Patna and I was in Chattisgarh… without talking , without seeing.. I stood under the shower and cried hard for her but no one cared… no one heared… she was my life.. everything else was just everything else… 1 year passed…

God has a plan in everyone’s life. For me I think it was Neha.. She came as a Junior in my college… Endless joy more than getting 100% in an exam… She is my Best Friend  even now..But……

                                                                                        To be continued

Written by: Akshara Sasikumar

The Mystery Behind "LOVE" - Ibin S Mathew

THE MYSTERY BEHIND “LOVE”

   Love....A small word in length but a much bigger word in its meaning. It can be described as a combination of four different letters which can even conquer the world, when they stay together. We can shorten our universe into these four letters. But does it always provide a favourable atmosphere ? I don’t think so. The beauty of love depends on how we take it.

     God  is what comes to one’s mind when they think of love. Its only because of his love and care that we are being taken care of in this world. Its a love with variety. No one can imitate his love. Holy Bible says ,”Love can even conquer the minds of our enemies”. When we love them, most probably they won’t have any other option other than loving us. This is a perfect lesson greater than academic education. All living beings have this quality within them. But the expression of love is different in the case of different people.

      Other than the love of God, the love of our parents stays at the top. We can experience it through our senses. It can also be referred to as the unconditional love. Because children are the greatest assets of parents. In general, children upto the age of 20 care for this love and they give it back to them. Once when we feel that we are comfortable enough, we start not reciprocating  this love. We may not wait to accept and return love. Instead we rush into our busy world. And as a result once when we reach a better position we dump our beloved parents into the old age home. We never consult anyone other than ourselves to take such a decision. There is a saying;  “Be loyal to yourself “. We are never used to follow these words. We should ask ourselves  that while doing all these, are we loving only ourselves. Because we all are a gift, launched into the world through the love of our parents.

      Now a days the term ‘love’ is commonly used by teenagers and youth. They never realise the importance of love when they say ‘ i am in love ‘. Such kind of love can be termed as short termed love, which may vary from a day to may be 3 or 4 years. A few months ago, the film ‘premam’ was released and its impact on love was quite different. It exposes a different way of treating love. We cant criticise the film completely, because it was just made for entertainment, as all other films are. But it made a negative impact on the society. But we can also sort out a beautiful theme from that film; a message for all those people who feel regret in loosing their lover. It correctly points to the validity of teenage love, which never lasts so long. When people fall in love ,they think that this will be the only person whom we will love till the end of our life. But this movie explores the real validity of that spark within us.

     The intensity of love varies in different situations. Unconditional love gets shortened to love with many conditions. But can we develop a love which is universal? No we can’t. We can only love with our mind and heart. We can never imitate anyone’s mind. And so the passion of love and care also differs. Some people are used to smile with love. We can find love in all movements. But we should be ready to observe each changes and criticize the negative. When people join hands together, in their label of love, no force can break its bond. It will only gets stronger. While writing about love, we can never reach a proper a conclusion other than unconditional love. When we leave behind all our ego while loving then only we can build a strong world; a world governed by love.

Ibin S Mathew

  U MADE ME BURN WITH DESIRE          

   

                        It was not love at first sight .There was no love at the beginning. But as the days passed both of them realized it is LOVE, which disturbs them .Both of them didn’t have the courage to admit it or express it.

      

 As the saying "LOVE MAKES LIFE BEAUTIFUL", both of them were in their own world. For him, his life was around her. He didn’t have anything else in his mind. Everything seemed were beautiful to him. He saw her in everything. He lost his mind. He was deeply in love with her.

        

  Her dark blue eyes always whispered to him. First they were observing, and then listening, and then they were saying something. Her lips blossomed every  time when he was near to her. Each time silence were the language between them. Evenings were longer for them. Both of them didn’t want to end. At that time, her eyes were speaking. He knew that the spark that he saw in her eyes is LOVE. He couldn’t say that it's a dream or life. He couldn’t sense it. The love in her eyes made him to dream about life. The fragmented revolved there was too thick. He was confused whether it’s her smell or the smell of LOVE.

            

They didn’t know what will be at the end.  
 Will it be as they wished?                                        
 Grow old together................

Or live as another person’s life partner...........

They were confused.....

He knows that his decision is his fate. But he couldn’t live without those eyes.........

Those eyes were with him till his last breath.

                                                                                                  HARIPRASAD A.R 

"MY MYSTERY GIRL" - Ankith Sreeni

“MY MYSTERY GIRL”

          When Ms.Minna and Ronny sir told us about this creative assignment, I thought about writing some story or a poem just like others. But later I thought of something when they mentioned the blog. But I wasn’t able to write anything. I was totally blank for the next two days. I don’t have enough experience in my life to write something from my life. But this girl made me write something. Something from my life. Something from her life. And finally I decided to write about that.

          So friends, who are reading this article may see this as a story, some may think this as a description and there may be some who think something different. But the truth is, this contains all of these. That is a small picture of life can be called as a story, my observations on her could be description, my experience in this college and something more. So I hope my little work touches all of you.

          When I joined this college, like other boys, I too had my little wishes. That included having awesome friends, enjoying, being a part of glamorous class with many good looking girls and the best academic tenure. But fate didn’t grant me the wish in every means. Well my dream class was totally different. All were intelligent and brilliant(PADIPISTS!!). I felt dissatisfied. But I was totally wrong in understanding the pulse of my class. My PADIPIST friends made me realize that a ‘glamorous’ class is nothing but a wrong notion. Today my class is my heaven. Now I am able to find the beauty in my class and it is the best.

          During my 3 months in this college, I have identified my classroom as the best platform to develop my personality. But I don’t know what made me notice a girl in midst of every other activity. I found her face in gloomy state whenever I saw her. I found her desperate. She sits in the class sorrowfully, walks and thinks sorrowfully and even smiles sorrowfully. I got interested in observing her. So I attempted each and every way to begin our friendship. At last when we met, I was surprised as she knew me already.  I wished to know about her silence.  Later some day, she told me-

“Ignorance is the best way to stay out of trouble”.

  From that day, she taught me many things from her past.  She talked like she had a wide experience of life.  She had a new concept of life.  But she was afraid of something to accept her own concept and lead a life according to that.

Friends, I am happy to share her concept of life with you. Because it really made a difference in me. 

“This is your life, do what you love.  If you don’t like something, change it.  Life is simple.  All emotions are beautiful. When you eat, appreciate every last bite of your life.  Life is short. Live your dream and share your passion.” 

I knew there was a lot more in her. Gradually I found she was comfortable talking with me. But her character was still unknown. So I was afraid what she will think of me. She only had attachment with her cousin brother more than that to her own family. Because always problems in the family added to her trouble. She tried hard to find her image in her family . But she couldn’t find it though. She was happy in describing her cousin brother. I remember what she told about him-

“He is the reason why I can stumble so fearlessly into adventure. Because  he is always there, to correct me when I make mistakes, to support and console me whenever I feel low and to love me like a little sister.”

I saw life in her. But she was afraid to lead that life. I saw beauty in her, wherever she was. Beauty in the way she carried herself through that life and its distressing ways. She felt loneliness a lot. No complaint for that. Because her life, at different points made her alone. She was forced to sacrifice her beautiful past for her unwanted future scripted by her parents. She couldn’t bear that kind of decisions. Even after that she still stands in her feet and I could see her strength, courage and willpower in that. But still she is afraid of something. Something haunts her through all her decisions and makes her reverse it. 

She could understand everyone. But no one can understand her. Her mystery lies unrevealed. I was shameful as I couldn’t understand her fully. In between our conversation I found her ‘something’. Something that she is afraid of. Something that makes her still for a while. Yes friends, it’s the ‘society’, that she is afraid of . It’s her surroundings. She couldn’t spread her wings within the cage of our society. She is pulling her limit inwards for this society. 

Today I can understand her completely. But I was late. Now when I woke up, her face is unclear for me. Her voice makes me think differently like her. But I’m really late and it’s hard for me to believe that everything I saw and shared with her was my dream. It’s true that, not everything is supposed to become something beautiful and long-lasting. 

“Sometimes people come into your life to show you what is right and what is wrong, to show you who you can be, to teach you to love yourself and to make you feel better for a little while.”

I don’t know whether you guys liked it or not. But tell me friends, is this  a dream or a nightmare? It’s hard for me to choose and to believe……      

         

    ANKITH SREENI 

                                                                  

 Rule of Nature- “Like poles repel and unlike poles attract”